RebbieChan

It's all a wonder, will I abide?

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Not That There Is Anything Wrong by RebbieChan, literature

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Not That There Is Anything Wrong

People say It gets better when your older You know yourself, your way How was that ever supposed to help When she knows who she is And is afraid? I have a photograph in my heart Of a girl in church Dreaming of love She doesn’t know she can’t have I have a notebook Of initials circled in hearts Just dreams in her head All she knows is a wasted day Lying in the this bed Lying wide awake All she knows is a ripped up page A story – his, not her name No wait All she knows is to shove it aside All she knows is to deny A story. It’s Strange. Locked in the unknown People say It’s the worst years of your life And j

Sea Change by RebbieChan, literature

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Sea Change

I’m sure I miss you There once was warmth I try to tell myself I’m certain we once had Something There were strings We weaved them together for so long There should be knots in my throat But all you do is pull and I come apart It was the sun in our eyes The tears under my blankets of lies The webs of all that was behind You pulled and I came apart in the waves Just floating away I’m sure you thought You knew But I don’t I only sink with the sun in my eyes and cool water taking on Slick and smooth among the maidens of the sea Calmed by the rocking consistency of the moon I believed in so many things The strings of fa

Women of Wind by RebbieChan, literature

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Women of Wind

I wish I was there with you But my armor is donned around me Holding me from anything other than this fight Open secrets are even still secrets After all this time With your unguarded hand in mine And with the winds Her soft lips at my ear You whisper your love divine I am no hero without you I am only a fearful girl in dress-up Acting some grand performance that I know not the words Nor steps I take my stand in front of those unfamiliar With eyes hiding what their hearts see Wanting costume, in the truth of it all It’s clear that isn’t me Yet the wind is upon my back Her gusts pushing my boots to action As she carries you The so

Questions by RebbieChan, literature

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Questions

I don’t want To see your face, to hear your name But you’re everywhere I have to cover my ears Just to shut you out I can’t be angry I’m not supposed to feel You won’t let me be mad, you’ll only let me be sad Wrapped in your arms This is not how I thought this would end When I first saw you So many years ago In that holy place My eyes so filled with questions and love And now they’re only filled with Questions Do you not want To see my face, to know my name? When you’re everywhere Do you cover your ears Just to shut me out? Are you angry? How do you feel When you see me mad, when you see m

Trust Issues by RebbieChan, literature

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Trust Issues

Pounding in my chest I can feel my lungs burning It’s not a happy ending It’s a puttering out on the side of the road I just know they’re all watching As if to say However did she get this far? Well in spite of it all I have to respond I just don’t know Shaking in the bathroom My head between my legs I’m think I’m gonna be sick It’s too much pressure to take Like my body’s telling me to quit They got their backs turned They don’t want to see I’ve been hiding this for how long But there’s always water in my eyes I guess I’ve just been ignored I can’t put to word

Too Nice by RebbieChan, literature

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Too Nice

Well that’s a cruel joke to play Naming me all these names Are you next going to turn me against me? No. I’m not going to be your Toy that rids you from your guilt Because your hands are stained And that’s my blood bitch I want it back All the time. All the energy. I’m sick of being so fake Pretending I don’t hear what you say This kindness is sick The way you think you can Puppet me by those lies you call strings Get real. It’s about time You cut it out, Go home, And stop all this shit. So what if I’m bitter? This is really it You’ve been screwing with my life And you’re the ones wh

Flaws by RebbieChan, literature

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Flaws

It’s a lie when the movies Tell of love with no flaws Stories of the perfect woman And the one who’ll make her fall You have an attitude Rusty and spiked edges You have walls miles high And a fear I shouldn’t mention I’ve seen you up so many times Like you’re ready for a fight Not full of energy and excitement But as if bracing and ready with a knife You act like you don’t care When things get tough And life throws you into a heap Because you can’t bring yourself to say what you really mean I’m on the outside Of the constant battle you seem to have And it’s a flaw I suppose I have To

Get Your Shit Together by RebbieChan, literature

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Get Your Shit Together

Immobilized It’s just another day I can’t get out of bed I’m holding the night As if the morning will break me in two But the sun rises And I feel nothing All the stardust in the universe That made me, me Is floating away There’s no problems I’m just loosening Without reason I’m not ill But I’ll tell you I am To get away with Whatever this is It will go away But what if it doesn’t What if this becomes my life Again It happens when I’m away It happens when you’re next to me And I can feel you breathe I make myself alone I disappear Staring at walls Ceilings Could I even cry?

Experiment by RebbieChan, literature

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Experiment

This is hard for me Being alive in your presence My skin is all a roil Under the blanket of your essence I hear hearts like war drums beating Mouth dry with anticipation I don’t know if you know, What are you doing with this flirtation? It’s like the testing of waters Each ripple effect Your eyes moving upon me Hands questioningly unchecked You don’t see how you tease When you give me that look Call me more than a friend And see just how my knees shook Because your hand is near mine When I know this is nothing more than a phase Because I knew it the day we met That for me it’s always

Silhouettes by RebbieChan, literature

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Not That There Is Anything Wrong by RebbieChan, literature

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Not That There Is Anything Wrong

Sea Change by RebbieChan, literature

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Sea Change

Women of Wind by RebbieChan, literature

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Women of Wind

Questions by RebbieChan, literature

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Questions

Trust Issues by RebbieChan, literature

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Trust Issues

Experiment by RebbieChan, literature

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Experiment

Of Course (Over It) by RebbieChan, literature

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Of Course (Over It)

You’re so beautiful You’re elegant in that rebellious way You blow my mind And I’ve got two words, just two words to say When you ask, if I’m over it It’s like the whole goddamn world Has got colors lighting up the sky When these feelings Pull me hard, Pull me down deep Like I’m just sitting here alone And it all explodes With a smile from my head to my feet I’m not a liar But you made me one When you ask, if I’m over it I could join a band And scream it out the top of my lungs I’ll praise it to the Holy Land No, I’m not the one It’s all a brand new song for me To know how

Difference Now by RebbieChan, literature

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Difference Now

Words pour out your mouth Don’t know what they say You mean That you don’t know Pulled up and out I can’t be a part of this But I got my roots down in Can’t comprehend It’s not the way we thought Either way it’s both Wrong I guess I mean That we both don’t know I feel we’re standing Still So far away when We once thought it all So near, so near, so near Just a wall So thin And all my thoughts come Crumbling What do I have to say? It’s not the way we thought Either way it’s both Wrong I guess I mean That we both don’t know When your eyes – I thought I saw them tel

Closets by RebbieChan, literature

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Closets

Can this get easy? When the wind blows and all I feel Is the unending sound Of the world’s loudest whisper I’m embarrassed Sitting in a fool’s circle Wrapped up in the stories played out in my head And of words I’ve yet to tell I can’t quite think of you Without the lie It’s not what it seems I’m just alone and that’s fine Can you come to me? Anyway I know Conversely, I’m red Just stop thinking, let go I’m no help, no fighter These battles, they rage Not ready to leave Not ready to stay I’m not out here or there People see what they see I don’t care, just as long As

Just Gone by RebbieChan, literature

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Just Gone

I feel like I’m drowning I’m lax, unmoving I can see the road ahead and yet I can’t stop. I can’t stop this stagnation. In my heart and my body My mind ticking on in a flurry. So many emotions, Not one of them lingers They lay under the surface, A plastic cover, sealed away I can’t feel. What will it take to move again? To push and to breathe and to feel again? Letting myself waste away Screw this juxtaposition of passion and silence. Screw this tradition of seeking out failure The one who I am and, The one who I become do not walk hand in hand What will it take to move on from this? From this fear

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About RebbieChan

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 14 years

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My Bio

[url=myanimelist.net/animelist/Rebb…

Favourite Books

Abarat, The Hunger Games, The Scarlet Letter, Harry Potter, Redwall

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allen Poe, C.S. Lewis

Favourite Games

Zelda, Tales of Symphonia, dragon quest, pokemon, Kingdom Hearts

Favourite Gaming Platform

Anything Nintendo

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Works Word Processor, Google Docs, Pen and paper

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RebbieChan

Jul 25, 2015

Question

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so I have not been putting fanfiction up here since...well awhile. mainly just random little things. But! I have been writing some (Legend of Korra, X Files, Agent Carter) I don't know that I want to go through the hassle of posting them here but maybe...? otherwise they are up on my tumblr and FFN

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RebbieChan

Apr 12, 2015

Devious Journal Entry

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I haven't made a journal in over a year so I thought what the heck. I pretty much just post random things here now - the occasional poem or short story. To be honest I find DA a little outdated (as well as it's annoying to upload stuff in 3 different places) so my fanfiction is all on my blog and my Fanfiction.net account. I'm also Rebbiechan on FFN but if you want to follow my tumblr just message me. Lately I've been really into comics! Currently reading Ms.Marvel, Hawkeye, Black Widow, Silk, Ultimate Spiderman, Thor, X Files Other than that I've been really busy with school. I'm editing my rough draft of my book and it's taking forever.

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RebbieChan

Jan 27, 2014

Updates

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I'm going through and editing some of my stuff, mainly chapters of "The System Vessel" these will be updated and new chapters will be posted. I may edit some other things as well, it just depends how long this "editing-kick" lasts ^^ Also, I finished Pokemon X (finally) if anyone wants to exchange friend codes for the safari let me know!